
It was 1968. I was excitedly looking forward to the life ahead of me. I had just graduated high school and was starting my first job at a local bank. I had high hopes for the future and couldn't wait to start my life as an adult.
I didn't worry about missing that first period; I was usually regular but I just put it down to all the changes I was going through. Then I missed another period and I knew my life had now taken a very unexpected turn. I was pregnant. I was only 17 and I was scared, lonely and depressed. I had nobody to talk to, no one I could I could trust or turn to for help. The baby's father was history, my parents would be devastated and my plans for the future were at an end.
So, I hid the pregnancy from everyone. I started eating massive amounts of food so my parents would not question my weight gain. I bought loose clothes and a rubber girdle to hold my stomach in. I held my secret close and went through the first eight months alone, with no one to share the wonder I felt when the baby kicked for the first time or to listen to my fears of what would happen to my child and me.
Finally, the day came when I could no longer keep my pregnancy secret, I knew that the baby was going to be born in less than a month and I had to tell my parents. They took the news hard but for the first time, they actually spoke to me like an adult. The question was what do to next?
My father, an abusive recovering alcoholic, wanted me to keep the baby and raise it at home. My mother, who worried about the embarrassment of having an unwed daughter and child living in her home, wanted me to give the baby up for adoption. More Here...