Wednesday, 03 October 2012
There he/she is. That's my baby. His/her head is towards the top of the picture, and it looks like he/she is lounging against the placenta (the circle on the left). You can see a little hand and foot, too. As soon as the image came up during the ultrasound, you could see the little heart beating, so there wasn't even time to worry if everything was alright. I thought I'd be a nervous ball of what-ifs that day. Instead, I felt so sick, throwing up was all I could think about, and the only nerves I felt were from the fact that I was going to the doctor (man, I hate going to the doctor!). My due date was changed to 5/3/13, and Baby is measuring right on target and everything looks good. I fell in love with the baby looking at the ultrasound, but there is still a strange disconnect between the baby in the picture and the fact that the baby is inside me this very minute! I've stopped waiting for reality to set in. I'm just going with it and dreaming of the tangible baby at the end.
Speaking of dreaming. I have the most vivid dreams. Usually they're random, but every night I have them, and I seem to remember them every time now. My favorite ones are the ones with babies in them (like the time I was holding our baby and I still couldn't tell if it was a boy or girl). Those are second only to the one I had the other night, where I was dreaming about cookies! Lots and lots of cookies that I kept trying to eat! Hahaha! Before I got pregnant, cookies had been my favorite food almost my whole life. Since being pregnant? I haven't wanted them once. If there was no other symptom of pregnancy, I would know I am pregnant because chocolate and sugary goodies do not appeal to me at all, and that is the first time in my life I've felt that way! I can't even be sad about it, because I figure it'll help me keep the weight off.
We've told more of our extended family and friends that we're pregnant now, and I have to say how cool it is to suddenly be entered into the "new mom" club. Suddenly everyone wants to talk about their pregnancy with you, and every other woman who's been through it steps up as your greatest ally and moral support. I just feel incredibly grateful to be surrounded by awesome women who I can learn from and lean on. It makes everything seem more do-able. Even the dry heaving in the morning that's happened twice this week now seems like no big deal.
Did you have vivid dreams, or suddenly lose interest in what used to be your favorite food when you were pregnant?