Friday, 31 August 2012
I can't tell you the carousel of emotions that's been going on in my mind since finding out we are pregnant. Most of them are hormone-based: irritation, weepiness, sadness (today). Some of them are byproducts of bringing a new life into the world: excitement, fear, worry. Today I woke up feeling kind of under the weather. I'm planning to do some prenatal Pilates to help combat that. I'm also feeling pretty anxious today because I wasn't feeling the need to use the restroom as urgently throughout the day yesterday, and my appetite has slacked off a little, as well. I also thought I was beginning to feel some morning sickness, but I'm not feeling that today, either. Part of me is beginning to think pregnancy is so full of symptoms in order to keep new moms from worrying about whether the baby is still growing inside them! Because I am equating symptoms with the assurance that I am, of course, pregnant. I'm trying not to stress it, but I'd be lying if I said I'm not worrying in the back of my mind. I'm almost desperate for that ultrasound, it can't come soon enough!
Also, I spilled the beans for the first time yesterday to one of my friends. I had told her before that we were trying to conceive, so I could have one person to confide in about it. But I forgot to tell her not to ask if it had happened because we didn't plan on telling people right away. So when she asked the other night how "things" were going and I told her "my lips are sealed," she knew! LOL! So we got to talk about it yesterday, and it felt good to have someone to be excited with, and to have praying for us during this time. Funnily enough, I also went with her to get a pregnancy test, as she had been having pregnancy symptoms, and it came out yesterday that she had never tested when she missed her period about a month ago. She wasn't pregnant (which was fortunate for them, as they just got married in June!), so that was good, even though it would've been fun to be pregnant together for the first time. It's feeling more real every day, and having someone else excited for us helps that.
I want to post my "early pregnancy symptoms," in case they might help anyone else. I always assumed my boobs getting bigger and/or sore would be the first sign, as it is the most commonly mentioned symptom. I never had that, and my boobs just now started getting bigger (back to the size they were while I was on BC, actually!), but they still aren't sore (thankfully!). The first unusual thing I experienced was excessive cervical mucus/discharge. Normally after you ovulate you have a dry spell, and I had a progressive feeling of wetness, and even a gushing sensation on a fairly regular basis. I kept thinking I was starting my period, but it was just a clear, odorless discharge. I also was progressively hungrier, with a hunger that was intense and more frequent. I was eating more at a single sitting and snacking late at night because I was SO hungry. I joke now that this baby must grow at night, because the hunger is still worse from the evening on than it is the rest of the day. I had a few headaches in there, which is unusual unless it's right before my period. I saw a woman on another forum, who was hoping she was pregnant, say that her "uterus had been super busy this month," and while that was a funny way to put it, I kind of get what she meant. I had a lot of sensations and feelings down there - some occasional very brief, sharp pains, some cramping/feeling full, a warming sensation once, and just some general feelings of movement or something going on down there (that I kept questioning "is it gas? Is it digestion?"). I also started forgetting things, which is really unusual! We're already having mishaps on a regular basis because, apparently, my husband relies on my memory too much. And the final symptom was napping. I didn't have general fatigue until more recently, but the week before I found out (before my missed period), I started needing a nap every day.
So far, I love being pregnant, difficult symptoms and all!
What were your early pregnancy signs? Do you remember the emotions carousel?