Tuesday, 19 June 2012
Both of my good friends have had kids or are having them very soon. S has twins and now lives an hour away with her fiance, and B is pregnant, due in September and lives with her jerk of a fiance. I don't get to see either of them anymore since B discovered she's expecting. When we do all hang out together, all I hear about is babies and what she needs to get and what she should expect. Yesterday I went to S's parents' to hang out with her and B, and all I did was eat & play with S's kids. Everything I said to anyone was ignored, it was like I wasn't even there.
I wouldn't mind this so much if I was at least somewhat at this point in my life, but I'm nowhere near it. One-I can't find a decent guy and two-I can't have kids. It's a constant reminder that I'm never going to experience this. The guy I'm semi dating now already has a kid and doesn't want anymore and he doesn't want anything 'serious' with me, which is obvious because I only see him once a week, if that..
Now of course I'm expected to go to B's baby shower, where there will be, of course, more talk of babies. I HATE baby showers, they're always extremely awkward for me, but I have to go because she's one of my best friends and it's expected of me.
Anybody have any suggestions on how I can deal with this?
It sucks not having anyone to talk to now that they're both parents.