Wednesday, 03 August 2011
I just recently had a little boy in April, and I knew I would love this child like no other. Honestly though, there are no words to describe it AT ALL. The only thing I can come up with is absolutely beautiful.
I love having my own family. Looking at my own flesh and blood everyday, and knowing my body produced this child, it's amazing. I haven't even returned to work yet (and it's getting to be about that time), because I just can't get enough of this little boy. I really wish that I could be a stay at home mom, but with the economy it's just not feasible.
Anyway, growing up I have always thought about how many children I would have and it's always been a 2-3 ratio. Well now I've got one. I do not under any circumstance plan on having another child anytime soon. It would have to be a couple years, and maybe by then my feelings will change.
Getting to the point, I cannot imagine having another child at this point. I want my son to have my 100% attention, I don't want to miss a thing. And I feel another child would most definitely be a contributing factor to missing a whole lot of things. Of course I want my son to have a sister some day, and maybe a brother. But right now, I do not want to share my unconditional love with any other child but him!
I'm not sure how mothers, can have children back to back? I can't fathom that at this point, grant it my son is only three months old and I believe I will over come sometime down the road.
But for now, do you mamas understand my chain of thought here? Or am I just being selfish with my love? Is that even possible?