Tuesday, 12 July 2011
Last time I blogged, I was saying how I kept thinking I was pregnant. I did finally get over it (to some degree). Now we have a house and nothing is stopping us from having a baby, except my slow thyroid.
I went to the doctor in May, because I was having some weird symptoms that I had been worrying about for a while. Turns out my thyroid is under active.
My doctor recommended that we put off trying to get pregnant until the issue is fixed (probably with medication, which I may have to take for the rest of my life), because hypoactive thyroids can cause people to have difficulty getting and staying pregnant. I just took my second blood test last Friday (I had to wait over 6 weeks from the first one), and I'm waiting to hear back from the doctor about going on medication for it. If I do get on something for it, it may be another 6, 12, 18, etc. weeks before we can find the right "cocktail" to suit my lazy thyroid needs, which means putting off getting pregnant until it is working properly.
My husband has been having major baby fever since we moved into our house in April. He wants to start trying to conceive as soon as possible. When the doctor told me we should put off trying until my thyroid issues are resolved, I have to admit I was a bit relieved to push it off for a couple of months. I'm terrified of having a child. I'm afraid to give up life as I know it. I feel like I'm too selfish to be a mom at this point in my life. I want to have more money saved. When is anyone ever really ready?
I don't think I ever will be! I'm not getting any younger, and I really do want to have kids at some point. I've always wanted a big family. I just want to be completely and totally ready. What can I say? I'm a planner. I feel like I need to have everything figured out financially before we start having kids.
A new fear I have is that when I get pregnant, my thyroid will go all crazy and it will cause me to miscarry or cause my child to have birth defects (I have been looking up way too much stuff online about thyroid problems during pregnancy -I need to stay away from the internet!). Now I have a new set of fears to add to the ones I've always had. *Sigh*
How did you know you were ready to have children? Did you or someone you know have an underactive thyroid during pregnancy or other health issues?