Tuesday, 21 December 2010
Tonight I realized I grow impatient with my daughter far too often. She's two and a half and a complete whirlwind of energy, equipped with an attitude to boot. She's definitely my child, no doubt about that. But lately I've grown detached. I've been in a bit of a depression for a few months now. I'm going to admit, this pregnancy took me by surprise and has been more confusing than I wish it would be.
Before I found out about babe number two, I had been planning on getting a job. I had also contemplated going back to school.
Alas, number two is on the way and some things will just have to wait. Hence, my late sadness. I really am trying to work on that, and it helps that I've started to feel the baby moving around - that makes it a lot more real for me.
But I digress, patience is not something that has ever really come easy to me. Tonight, I managed to take a deep breath and tried really hard to focus on just being kind to my daughter.
I was emptying the dishwasher and she started to help. She likes to do this, and I usually let her pass me the cutlery, but I do try to discourage her from handing me glasses from the top rack because she can be pretty rough. Well, she ended up breaking a glass and I immediately swooped her away from the dishwasher with a big "No!'.
Then I took a step back for a second and thought You don't have to yell at her. It was an accident. So I softened my tone and told her, "Uh-oh! The glass broke! We have to be gentle. Mummy will finish unloading the dishwasher now."
She was tired tonight, due to no nap, and started crying and what child doesn't feel guilty when they know they've broken something? So I laid her down on the couch, tucked her blanket around her and put on the Grinch. That didn't last long. So I gave her the broom and she started sweeping the kitchen, which I usually don't let her do.
It really warmed my heart to see her so excited to help me. It really reminded me of how much I love her and want to make her happy so I can see that cute, smart, constantly growing girl smile. It reminded me that patience really is a virtue; kindness, as well.
It also reminded me that I only have a few more months to enjoy my beautiful daughter all to myself.
What things have your kids done that remind you how great it is to be a mom?