Most people know I have endometriosis, and I am one of those rare cases where I have chronic pain, and numerous cysts, which I know have returned. I haven't yet been to my doctor, but I know when I do, I'm going back on my anti imflammatory, and I'll probably try to get pregnant for another 6 or 7 months, but after that I'm done trying.
After the miscarriage in January, hubby and I started trying again after we moved here in May-and its almost October-still no success. I got pregnant within 2 months of going off of birth control pills, and I haven't done anything to prevent pregnancy since I moved.
I've basically come to realization that the one time I got pregnant was it -not to throw a pity party, but I knew getting pregnant in the first place was a long shot, and even carrying to term-which I didn't do would be even more amazing.
I have a less than 50% chance to get pregnant again and my chances are dwindling because I haven't gone to the doctor yet. More than likely I have a cyst blocking my fallopian tubes again-like the last time. I'm skipping periods and all the other wonderful endometriosis symptoms I have.
So with that being said the realization isn't easy that I'll never be a mom. I hear "oh you can adopt" hundreds of times but I don't want to hear it-at least right now. Maybe in a few months when I get a clear cut yes or no about my fertility maybe then I'll be okay. But for right now I am realizing there is a more than likely possibility I'll never know what its like to have sleepless nights, E.R visits, numerous poopy incidents, pictures of me holding a newborn exclaiming everything, sickness, and everything else that goes along with kids.
The good thing though through all of this, I don't have to worry about protective measures against pregnancy
. It's still hard though considering I'm only 24-happily married, and wanted to be a mom my whole life.
Have you struggled with endometriosis?
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People who say you can just adopt literally make me smack my forehead. Most of the time they are people who are able to have children or never really knew the urge to have a baby. Sorry, I have nothing more relevant to add except people like that can be insensitive even if they don't realize it.
Don't give up! My mom has emdometriosis and they told her she can never have children. She hunted down the best fertility doctors she could find (even on her limited budget! I don't knowhow she did it...). She suffered from one miscarriage, as well, but now she has three kids! Keep trying, it can happen!
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I have endometriosis also and know how hard a lot of this can be. I was told it would be difficult to get pregnant, but I am now expecting my first in just two weeks- so don't give up hope! I wish you all the best.
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My nurse practitioners suspect I have endometriosis too. I've had a couple cysts now, both during college, very irregular periods, no pregnancies scares, extreme pain during menstruation, my mother had trouble getting pregnant herself, and when an ultrasound was done on my uterus they told me it didn't look normal, but they couldn't tell much other than that. I want lots of kids. I'll be devastated if I can't have any. I hope we can both have babies. Don't give up.
I might mention that using protective measures is still a good idea. I thought the same thing, except I could get pregnant, but not keep it, so I kept having micarriages.
I was told it would be difficult to get pregnant. I hope we can both have babies. Don't give up.