Wednesday, 15 September 2010
It had been haunting me for days-- the way I was feeling.
The constant nausea, the fatigue, the sore breasts, and the most--- awkward desire I was having for food. At that moment, I started wondering if I could possibly be pregnant, if I could be carrying a child. My boyfriend, noticing all of these things, asked me the same question I was thinking.
So I waited, for my period to come...and two days after I missed:
I took a pregnancy test- my boyfriend called me at 4:30 a.m. on his way to work so that I could it with my first morning urine, only to receive a "not pregnant" flash upon the screen.
I was heartbroken. I never expected to be, but I was and so was my boyfriend, who called me crying after he got off work...saying over and over again "I just wanted to be a Daddy".
There we were, sobbing like babies over a negative pregnancy test while most people our age would be jumping for joy.
He spoke with his mother and she said that those tests are not always correct, that sometimes they are wrong. She told him to have me wait and retest. I have been doing some research and found out that I may have taken the test too early even though I did miss a period.
I then reread the directions for the thousandth time, but caught something I hadn't before--it said to never sit the test with the urine stick pointing toward the sky (pre nor post testing) and sure enough that is how they had been in the box, but I still do not want to be hopeful. I do not want to have to break Cody's heart with a no, I don't want to have to break mine either.
I do not want to take the test alone again.
A week later, I am feeling the same symptoms and more -still no period. Cody is driving up tomorrow to be here when I take a second test. This way, if it is positive we can celebrate and if it is negative- we can be together and not have to console one another via phone.
What I want to know is feedback from some of you: have any of you ever had false negatives?