Tuesday, 06 October 2009
I go back and forth about this. At times, I really want another baby. Other times, I feel so overwhelmed with one kid, that I don't think I could handle another one. 21 is pretty young to have 2 kids, but I know lots of people manage. I just miss being pregnant. I keep seeing pictures of pregnant women, and they look so cute. That was the last time I loved by body, when I was pregnant. I know, that is no reason to get pregnant, but it doesn't hurt. I want to experience that again, morning sickness, labor pain, and all.
I miss being able to hold my son all day. And the way he smelled when he was a newborn. Anyone with a baby probably knows what I'm talking about. I don't know why they smell that way, but it's the best smell in the world.
I feel kind of like it wouldn't be fair for my son to have to share his mommy and daddy with a new baby. I might miss out on him learning a lot of new things, because I'd be too focused on a newborn. On the other hand, I think if they're closer in age, they'll be friends when they get older. If there's a big gap between them, I don't think they would be able to relate to each other very well. My sister is 20 months younger than me, and we're best friends. We have been our whole lives. There's nothing better than having your best friend living in the same house.
My husband is all for us having another baby. He said he would wait 2 years at the most. Any later than that and we'd be too old. (23! haha) He wants to still be young when they turn 18, so we'll be able to do all the fun stuff we never got to do before we had kids. I know once I get pregnant, there's no turning back. I guess I would have no way of knowing what 2 kids is like, until I'm actually in that situation.
Does anyone remember what it was like going from 1 kid to 2? Was it a huge change?
Am I crazy to want another one?